On this the last day of the year/ decade, I figured I'd wake up a little earlier than normal to jot down a few notes and collect my thoughts. My intent was to write about the highlights and lesson I learned from last year, but then I remembered that saying... "Don't look back - you're not going that way."
If I had to grade 2019 it would get a solid C. There were some good times. There were some bad times. More importantly there were some lessons:
LIFE IS SHORT
2019 brought a lot of loss and difficult diagnosis. Way too many people my own age either lost their life or were hit with some very tough that made them stare down their own mortality. Of course I've always been aware that our time on this planet is brief and that our next breath is not promised, but I is the year I actually felt that to be true... deep down. So if life is short, what am I waiting for? Fear has often stopped me from experiencing the life I dreamed, but that stops here. I'm leaving that fear bs riiiiight here. If not now, then when?
I CAN DO BIG THINGS Never in my life had I prepared a pitched deck for a client with a 5 figure rate attached to it. It was daunting. I was nervous. It was necessary. After months and months of pitching, I secured the deal. Honestly, it was the first time in business I'd ever gone after anything in that way. I've been fortunate enough organically find opportunities, but here was the first one I had to pitch, politic and win the business. Not only did I win the business, but I was very proud of the work I did for this client. It was the proof I needed to crush any self-doubt about my ability to move in big spaces.
FAMILY IS EVERYTHING I leaned heavy on my family this year. We experience some loss and just all around some difficult situations, but I'm so incredibly thankful for each and every one of them. You really don't know how strong your family unit is until you've been tested. Through death, cancer and divorce... their love is unconditional. When the world is too much, there's always home.
So tonight as we enter a new decade... she ready!!!! I'm at peace with what's behind me but really focused on what's ahead. Lots of wonderful things will happen in this decade (I feel it). I'm prepared to take the good with the bad and live life abundantly.
Happy New Year!